Well Hello – this feels awkward.
I’m not sure if this post will even reach anyone? Whether there is still anyone on the recieving end of my blog anymore, seen as I haven’t posted since December 2020. One of only two posts I did that year so it’s been a considerable amount of time since I’ve been consistent on here.
I’ve thought about my blog on and off during that time though. But so much in my life changed (and so much has stayed the same) and once you get out of the habit it’s difficult to get back in.
I had all kinds of good intention this time last year though, when I started recieving emails informing me that my hosting subscription was about to expire. The next payment was due if I wanted to keep this little corner of the internet active.
So I dithered and went back and forth on what to do; I couldn’t justify to cost when I wasn’t posting. I was also pregnant and barely functioning as a human; what with crippling nausea and having had to drop my pain medication down to the minimum for my growing baby leaving me actually crippled. So was I really going to find the time, energy and desire to start blogging again? I was also aware that once I had my daughter my free time was going to disappear into endless Groundhog Day of nappies and feedings and trying to get a crying baby to sleep. So again, how likely was I to sit down and write?
So, taking all that into consideration, I spent the money I didn’t actually have and renewed my subscription. Because, despite it being an obvious waste, this blog brought me a lot of joy and pride at one time and I didn’t want to lose it.
And now another year has rolled around and I’ve recieved my ‘service expiration’ email again. So here I am. With my nearly 6 month old baby girl sleeping in her cot upstairs, house chores done or underway and finding a moment in the incredibly short but neverending days of being a SAHM to sit on the couch with my laptop and see how I feel. Which is a lie I guess. I know how I feel. I want to keep my blog, I want to write again. I’m just dubious I will.
If I did, I feel that in many ways my blog would remain the same. Lifestyle, baking, interior would be easy enough for me to write about. Well, I’m not exactly baking currently but I would like to try and start again. Things like beauty and fashion would take a major backseat though, at least for the time being. The idea of writing a book review is a funny joke seen as I haven’t picked up a book since before she was born. But then there would be new topics I’d like to share such as motherhood and all things baby related.
So as you can maybe tell, there isn’t really a point to this post. I’m just airing out my thoughts and dusting the cobwebs from my keyboard. I know what I want to do. I know what I probably should do. And those two things are opposing one another. I still have a few days to decide, with my current subscription not running out until nearing the end of the month. So until then this was nice. Even if there isn’t anyone on the other end anymore.